I don't think I can handle another loss...I mean...I know me and my uncle have never been on good grounds and everything...but...seeing the pain he is in...seeing how he is suffering and knowing what could happen...I am already loosing too much of myself as the day goes by...

If someone else in my life dies...I think...I think I will just break...turning into nothing but a shell that moves...Who am I kidding...I am that way already...

I don't have that gut feeling that tells me something is wrong or that something is about to happen like i normal do. Its just...well this is how I feel today...sadly I can't help but feel it is the truth...

To the ones I know and care about, don't worry about me okay...? I know how depressing this is and all, but pitying me will not help...