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It Needs to Be Said...

Wed Jul 8, 2009, 12:13 AM
  • Mood: Anguish
  • Listening to: New Devine
  • Drinking: coke
I don't know what to do...I don't know what to think...Each day becomes more and more of a struggle, a question as to why I bother...something holds me here, yet with each passing moment, I am withering away, dying inside quickly...I've tried for a long time now, tried to push these thoughts aside, tried to keep the urges of the past away...

I feel that in the next 24 hours...I will fail...

If I could start over...if I could change the things and the medical condition that made me this way...I would, I swear I would...I cant now...I wish my family would help inside of looking at me as a waste of space...but that is all I am...isn't...a waste of space waiting to crumbling in the ashes of time, to be forgotten...

I don't know how much longer I can hold my mind...I am slipping away, loosing the battle inside...I fear I am about to revert back to what I once was...

I don't know what to do...

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D: :hug: I wish there was something I can do.

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Now, this part is very important. I say this with the most seriousness even though it's in comical form. You'll be okay. If you're losing the battle inside, maybe it's time you make a series of battle plans to win the war. Even though everything feels like it's falling apart inside, force yourself to keep it together on the outside. This disease is painful--I know. I have it, too. But, the one thing that you need to do, no matter how much of a bitch it is, is to keep on moving. Plan out your college career. Your job, even. Don't have an idea? Well, make several paths. Make one to become a psychologist, make one to become a lawyer! I don't care, just do it. Do one to become an English teacher, for all I care. Maybe you would like it. At least it'll help put some order in your life. Even if it doesn't go according to plan, it'll help you look straight forward, okay? I'm here for you!

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